To be 100% honest...

1) I don't know what you're thinking.  You can't be upset that I won't talk to you.  What did you expect?  You made a choice and now you have to live with it.  To be honest, I had a hard time liking you all along becuase I saw things no one else did.  And now they're all starting to realize that I was right.  Maybe you should have been true to yourself and everyone around you from the get-go and this wouldn't have happened.  Maybe I wrong, I don't know.

2) To the Master of Predicatable.  I can't even say anything to you because you just make me so mad.  I guess I just need to forgive you and forget about it.  It's all done and over and you're gone and I'll never have to see you again.  Just please really leave me alone this time. 

3) Well it doesn't look like things with us will ever be mended because anytime I try to talk to you, you're completely annoyed or disgusted or pissed off unless we're talking about you.  I tried.  When you're ready to try, I'll be here.

4) I hope I didn't make a huge mistake.

5) I just want you to know that I am crazy about you!  Everyday, you amaze me more and more.  I am so happy to have you in my life and I honestly mean that.  Thank you for being my best friend...for staying with me through everything...for knowing me inside and out and loving me despite it...for holding me up whan I can't do it alone.  I absolutely love you!

6) I'm tired of hearing the same thing everytime.  You never follow through.  Out of sight, out of mind?  Yeah, I think that about fits it.  Don't expect me to keep opening up to you.  You might actually have to show some effort at our relationship now. 

7) You did a really terrible job of trying to prove the things you were saying.  You never cared.

8) You are bittersweet.  You're always there to listen to me and let me cry.  You always give me advice without judgement.  But you do have your moments where you treat me like crap.  You are just so quick to judge things that aren't in the "norm" for you.  Just give it a little chance before you criticize!  Thank you for always listening when you want to.  I love you!

9) I know you don't understand why I was so reluctant to share things with you but it was becuase you were never happy for me.  That's all I wanted.  But instead, all I heard what that I was doing things wrong or I was making a stupid mistake.  Had you been more acception, I would have been more open.

10) Thank you for always being willing to listen.  I know I've never come and spilled my guts to you but I know you'd listen and that means the world, so thank you!

11) You're always there for a good laugh and it does help on the rough days.  Thank you!

12) Thank you for always being there.  I know I can come to you and you would give me good advice and listen and care.  Thank you for that!  It really does mean a lot!

13) I just have a hard time with how clingy you are.  I don't hate you but you need to realize that just because someone doesn't talk to you ONE day out of the entire year, doesn't mean they hate you!

14) You just need to get over it and move on.  Shit happens.  You're life doesn't end there.  It keeps going and you need to too.  Sometimes you just have to accept what gets thrown at you and as hard as it may be, you just have to hold your head high and think positive.  There are TONS of amazing things right in front of you and soon those will be gone if you let this become your life's focus the way you are.  Let it go.

I LIVE because I don't really have a choice.

I WORK at a terrible job that I genuinely dislike. However, I love my coworkers and my kiddos there! I also just got hired as a CNA.

I TALK about things that don't matter. As for the things that do matter, I don't bring those up.

I WISH I were motivated.

I ENJOY being quizzical and trying to figure out the world.

I LOOK at the world and usually wonder why.

I FIND the small things in life more valuable than the big.

I SMELL everything. I'm often told I have a queen sense of smell.

I HIDE everything. Usually my feelings.

I PRAY that God will help me change the world…or at least someone's life.

I WALK a lot at work…but I need to walk more.

I WRITE all the time. It's my favorite.

I SEE beautiful things and don't tell anyone because I'm afraid they won't appreciate it like I do.

I SING in my head every second of every day.

I CAN not play guitar, no matter how hard I try.

I WATCH 24 every night cause I'm a freaking addict.

I YEARN to change lives.

I DAYDREAM at all the wrong times.

I WANT to fix everything and everyone.

I CRY when everything I've suppressed comes back up.

I READ not enough.

I LOVE when I learn something new…something different than math or English…something about the world.

I SOMETIMES make up conversations with people when I'm nervous to talk to them.

I TOUCH soft things.

I HURT everyone around me…and that hurts.

I FEAR failure…and failure is a wide spectrum or things.

I HOPE I know what I'm doing and everything works out like I think it will.

I BREAK hearts, not promises. Haha, uhh…

I EAT every ten seconds.

I QUIT my addiction…and started again.

I BATHE all the time.

I DRINK everything non-alcoholic.

I STOP at nothing. I actually don't know what I meant by that.

I SAVE money. Haha, that's the funniest joke I've told all day!

I HUG everyone.

I AM IN a very sour mood.

I PLAY with Tucker a lot. He's real cute.

I MISS a lot of things. It makes me cry almost every day.

I FORGIVE very easily…sometimes it scares me that I don't hold grudges cause I just keep getting hurt…but then I remember Jesus.

I DRIVE my little Civic and his name is Gordi.

I LEARN haptically.

I HAVE more than enough to be happy in life.

I MADE my hair straight today…and it looks quite nice, if I do say so myself.

I KISS Ryan every day.

I BELIEVE that we should be more like Jesus.

I WAIT too long to say things that need to be said.

I NEED to exercise more.

I FEEL very discontent with my job and with the way I live.

I KNOW a lot of useless things. Ask me a pointless question. I might know the answer, and if I don't, I'll figure it out…putting one more piece of useless knowledge in my head.

I WONDER why a lot.

I DON'T HAVE MUCH USE FOR most of my knowledge.

I AM Hannah Marie.  I wasted too much time trying to fit other people’s standards and not enough time being Christ-like.  My goal in life is to be more like my Creator and to change the lives of people around me.  I will not compromise my beliefs or standards for anyone.  I am who I am and will not give that up for the world.  I am in love with the only boy who understands me and still loves me and I’m going to spend my life with him!  I will do anything for the people I care about…and probably even the people I don’t know.  I often question the motives of the world and wonder why.  I am me.